*Ant*
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I don't really know why i'm posting this, but sitting here right now it seems the right thing to do. I'm not wanting sympathy or pity, what I do need is to put something down in words, and hopefully some positive energy flowing my way.
I've had a cough for around 5 weeks, and the odd day when i've had a sharp stabbing pain around my chest and sides around my ribcage and a shortness of breath. My girlfriend being the wonderful and loving type had googled and read up on the more detailed symptoms I was showing. She thought it may have been a bout of pneumonia and suggested I talk to my doctor. So wednesday morning I get a telephone appointment with my doctor who tells me he'll get me an urgent chest x-ray at the local community hospital. I had to chase that up as didn't hear from them and managed to get "we'll squeeze you in if you can get here at 4pm". I did but they wouldn't discuss the results as a doctor needed to see the x-ray and i'd just "have to give my GP surgery a call in a couple of days".
Anyhow I was a bit peeved by this and being in more and more pain as the day progressed I called Dawn my beautiful partner and asked if she'd come with me if I drove to the nearest A&E department, which she did and we arrived at Queens in Burton-upon-Trent around 8pm. After a 2hr wait I was seen by the fabulous staff who accessed my earlier x-ray on their computer and had my vitals and bloods taken. Around about 1hr later I was told I have a massive infection in both my lungs which was causing my cough and shortness of breath, but they'd give me antibiotics and it should clear up just fine. The only thing they were concerned with was that my bloods were showing up a marker that suggested I had a blood clot in my lung. They said it was a simple procedure to treat the blood clot but they needed to make sure exactly where it was, so they wanted me to have a CT scan on my lungs. Around 5am in the morning the scan is done and the doctor has looked at it and i'm waiting for him to come talk to me and get it sorted so I can get myself and poor Dawn (who's only been allowed to sit in the corridor for the last several hours) back home to bed.
The doctor pops into my little cubicle on the A&E ward and draws the curtains.......and then drops the bombshell of all bombshells! "You have a large infection in your lungs, but the CT scan is showing a large cancer in your left lung that has spread to the top of your lung and into your right lung also". WOW! Wasn't expecting that one, my worst nightmare come true. I grew up being terrified of two things - nuclear weapons and cancer!
It's coming up to 24hrs since I was told, and I still feel like i'm in an awful nightmare that I just know isn't going to end well. I don't mind telling you all that I am terrified, scared and fearing i'll never see my 7yr old grandsons excitement whilst opening his christmas presents ever again.
I've had a call from my GP today to tell me he's been phoning around and chasing up, and i'm on a two week waiting list for an appointment with the oncology department. I have been told I will need to have lots more CT scans of all my body to find out where/if the cancer has spread.
I've had some lovely messages from various family today giving me their love and best wishes and being positive. My mum, daughter and son are utterly broken, as well as my lovely Dawn. They are trying to be strong and thinking positive, and I guess I am too, although i'm probably failing misserably at both. I'm scared to get my hopes up and think positive, because i'm scared if they tell me it's spread further and that I have 3, 6 months etc it's going to be another hammer blow. Do I fear and prepare myself for the worst so that it's not another shock to the system, or do I be positive and risk being hit with another bombshell that i'm not expecting?
Anyhow I do apologise for rambling on, but forgive me as it has helped me somehow being able to type it out and put it in words. I'm a scared, terrified and broken man who has no idea what the future will hold, if any future at all. I'll try and fight this for the sake of my dear mum, my children and grandson, Dawn my soulmate and those that are close to me. And i'll try and keep you all up to date and maybe a kind of diary to let you know what is going on if it is of interest to any of you. Perhaps it may help in some strange way if anyone is unfortunate enough to follow in my footsteps.
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Former England striker Frank Worthington 72
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Sorry to hear that fella.
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Anyone heard from the old fella?
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Paul,
May I ask an honest question? How has "Brexshit" affected you personally, are you having to do without anything since we have left the EU, do you have any less money in your pocket, are there products or services that you can no longer access?
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Spam fritters are a guilty pleasure, scrumptious!
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'Marvelous' Marvin Hagler 66.
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4 hours ago, John S said:
To get away from that election....
Flat Earth and gravity! Apparently, not only are we living on a flat Earth, but there is no such thing as gravity. Instead, we are accelerating upwards making it seem that things fall. Throw something up in the air, and the Earth accelerates upwards to meet it. Simples
Except, by now we should be travelling many thousands of times faster than the speed of light. And it doesn't explain why, if you drop a metal ball and a feather, the Earth accelerates to meet them at different speeds.
Also, space does not exist because that is just a stupid concept. How can we have an atmosphere next to a vacuum? Surely the vacuum would suck up all our atmosphere! Instead, there is a dome covering our flat Earth keeping our atmosphere in.
I will continue in another post about how the Sun and Moon are really close to us, and how the Moon is in fact a torch. Also, Sunlight is warm, and Moonlight is cold....
Yes, some people really do believe the above.
Well derrr....obviously all that is true. Come on John get with the game fella.
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Captain Sir Tom Moore 100, bless his soul.
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19 hours ago, Phone said:
CORY,
Covid 19 may be the least of their worries
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Thu, January 28, 2021, 2:14 AMBEIJING (Reuters) - China toughened its language towards Taiwan on Thursday, warning after recent stepped up military activities near the island that "independence means war" and that their armed forces were taking action to respond to provocation and foreign interference.
Phone
I read that myself Phone. It's a scary thought.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-55851052
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17 hours ago, bluezulu said:
i'm now under house arrest as my son has tested positive. me and wife been up to testing station today and told they can't test us and to self isolate. have ordered self test kits from gov site and should be here by tomorrow! oh deep joy!
Eeek! Fingers crossed and best wishes for you and your family mate.
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You look after yourself Ken, hopefully you're over the worst of it.
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7 minutes ago, Ken L said:
The important question though is "how are you now"?
I'm good thanks Ken. I don't think I had/have had Covid.
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7 hours ago, chesters1 said:
I hear wellies are in demand in the midlands ,damned brexit!
It's the cabin fever setting in. I'm hearing some very strange noises from the sheep late at night.
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9 hours ago, Ken L said:
One of the options when you go on the .gov site is for a postal test.
Ant's post suggests that there might be a few issues, but I'm sure the majority will work just fine.
My nearest towns post office did have a "severe outbreak" of the new variant a couple of weeks ago. We didn't have any post delivered in the village for 5 days as the posties were all off sick, poor buggers. I'm guessing that's how my postal test has gotten lost.
The government briefing was a sombre affair today with these new variants seeming to be more deadly. I fear we still have a very long time to go before things start getting better.
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8 hours ago, Ken L said:
Well, this isn't entirely unexpected:
"Your coronavirus test result is positive. It means it’s likely you had the virus when the test was done.
You must self-isolate immediately for 10 days".
Still feels like a cold at the moment.
Best wishes for a fast recovery Ken. I myself did a postal test two weeks ago last monday. Still haven't had any results back, so god knows what happened to that. Luckily I guess it was just a regular winter cough rather than Covid, still got the bugga though.
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1 hour ago, chesters1 said:
"Experts" want social distancing to extend to 3m ,i prefer 50 but sex could be problematic!
Pffft! Not for me.
"The Horse"
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Thank you all. Just an update, I'm booked in for scans on monday afternoon, so should know more by monday evening. It's going to be a long weekend but fingers crossed.